I’m Not Everything I Want to Be 

年届古稀的利布谢·雅尔措维亚科娃收到个人摄影展的邀请——这是她等待了五十年的机会。她终于能向世界完整展示自己作为摄影家的生命与艺术。她曾是一个在布拉格之春后离开故土、经历性向疑惑与死亡威胁、曾经一贫如洗的女子。东京的时尚舞台曾向她招手，柏林墙的倒塌也曾令她动容。在时代的浪潮中，她不断追问：我是谁？我为何而行？她的作品正是这段追问的见证。导演克拉拉·塔乔夫斯卡以声效与节奏剪裁为雅尔措维亚科娃的影像赋予新生，打开了一扇超越个人命运、映照时代变迁的影像之窗。 

When septuagenarian photographer Libuše Jarcovjáková receives an invitation for a long-awaited solo exhibition, she finally has the chance to present her life’s work to the world. Once a penniless woman who fled Prague after the Spring, facing threats, identity turmoil, and exile, she experienced the allure of Tokyo’s fashion world and the fall of the Berlin Wall. Through sound and montage, Klára Tasovská transforms Jarcovjáková’s archives into a sweeping reflection on identity, desire, and the turbulent history of her times. 

导演：克拉拉·塔乔夫斯卡
编剧：克拉拉·塔乔夫斯卡、亚历山大·卡谢耶夫
主演：利布谢·雅尔措维亚科娃
类型：纪录长片
对白语言：捷克语
制作机构：Somatic Films、nutprodukcia (SK)、Mischief Films (AT)

Director: Klára Tasovská
Screenwriter: Klára Tasovská, Alexander Kashcheev
Cast: Libuše Jarcovjáková
Genre: Documentary Feature Film
Language: Czech
Production Company: Somatic Films / nutprodukcia (SK) / Mischief Films (AT)

克拉拉·塔乔夫斯卡毕业于布拉格电影学院（FAMU）纪录片系，其作品多以社会现实与女性视角为核心。她的首部长片《堡垒》（Fortress，2012，与卢卡什·科克什合导）获伊赫拉瓦国际纪录片电影节最佳捷克纪录片奖。她的后续作品《Nothing Like Before》（2017）入围阿姆斯特丹国际纪录片电影节（IDFA）。 

Klára Tasovská is a Prague-based filmmaker and FAMU graduate whose work explores social reality and women’s perspectives. Her feature debut Fortress (2012, co-directed with Lukáš Kokeš) won Best Czech Documentary at Ji.hlava, and Nothing Like Before (2017) premiered at IDFA’s First Appearance Competition. 

我被利布谢·雅尔措维亚科娃的影像深深吸引，她的作品是一种自由的实践，也是与自我的搏斗。她的镜头、她的身体、她的文字构成了一个完整的世界，我希望观众能在其中看到女性如何在历史洪流中寻找自由。影片完全由她的照片与日记组成，我通过节奏与声音将这些静止的影像重新赋予生命，让时间与记忆流动起来。 

I was drawn to Libuše’s work because it embodies a radical practice of freedom and a constant struggle with the self. Her camera, her body, and her words form a complete universe through which we can see how a woman searches for liberation within history. Built entirely from her photographs and diaries, the film uses rhythm and sound to breathe life into the still images, allowing time and memory to flow anew.