导演：赵八斗
编剧：赵八斗
主演：吴嘉辉 赵晨阳
制片人：张琼丹
摄影：陈立硕
类型：剧情短片
时长：27分
完成时间：2022
对白语言：中文
字幕：中英
地区：中国大陆
制片公司：青年电影制片厂

Director: Badou Zhao
Screenwriter: Badou Zhao
Cast: Jiahui Wu, Chenyang Zhao
Producer: Qiongdan Zhang
Cinematographer: Lishuo Chen
Genre: Feature short
Length: 27min
Year: 2022
Dialogue: Chinese
Subtitles: Chinese, English
Region: China
Production Company: Youth Film Studio

跨性别脱口秀女演员林月珍对以自己身份为噱头的演出颇为不满。面对自己哥哥的突然造访，七年前被父母逐出家门的痛苦涌上心头。哥哥告知她母亲的离世，并识破了表面光鲜的林月珍内心的孤寂。被触动的林月珍决定踏上回家之路，却在家乡得知为隐瞒自己跨性别的身份，父母称自己因病离世。林月珍毅然离去，只能在舞台上的幻想里实现和家人和解的愿望。

Transgender stand-up comedian Lady Lin was discontented with her performances that used her identity as the punchline. One day, her estranged older brother showed up, bringing back the pain and grief she suffered when she had been disowned by their parents seven years ago. Her brother informed her of their mother’s recent death and saw the loneliness behind her glamorous facade. Touched, she decided to visit her hometown, only to hear that her parents had lied to everyone that she had died years ago to conceal her transgender identity. She turned around and left resolutely, with her only hope of reconciliation with her family through the fantasies she performed onstage.

赵八斗，男，1998年4月，金牛座。毕业于北京电影学院2020届戏剧影视文学系剧本创作专业本科，在校期间任导演编剧拍摄多部叙事短片、纪录片。喜欢观察极致人物的日常生活与普通人的极致情感。

作品：2017年短片《兰波节选》；2018年纪录片《代号PEK》作品：2017年短片《兰波节选》；2018年纪录片《代号PEK》

Zhao Badou, male, born April 1998, Taurus. Graduated from Beijing Film Academy class of 2020 with a bachelor’s degree in screenwriting, having written and directed several short films and documentaries. Likes to observe the daily life of superlative characters and the superlative emotions of normal people.

Works: 2017 short film “,Le bateau ivre” 2018 documentary “PEK”

在一切的开始，我的讲述欲望很单纯：希望呈现一个习惯自欺欺人的人命运的一个小段落。这样的人多是拥有复杂两面性的——生活的真相和自我营造的假相，而刚好我所关注并且执着的两类人群：跨性别者和脱口秀演员身上或多或少拥有这种特性。故事中的林月珍也因此非常矛盾，她的内在有明确的情感需求，却又因为自设的自尊呈现出明确的攻击性，同时又畏惧、不敢向前。另一方面，我并没有执着在故事中为角色解决困境或发生和解。在疫情中有一个词叫“无症状携带者”，我认为人们多数都拥有苦痛，但也在自我与自我的抗争中“无症状”地携带着苦痛生活。我就是怀着以上两点的认知，完成了这部影片。

At the very beginning, what I want to express was simple: I wanted to show a small episode in the life of a person who is used to lying to themselves and others. People like this are complicated and dual-natured — the reality of life versus the self-made fantasies. There are two groups of people that I follow closely and both share this characteristic to varying degrees: transgender people and stand-up comedians. Lin Yuezhen, the protagonist of the film, is highly ambivalent because of this; on one hand, she has clear unmet emotional needs, but she displays hostility because of her dignity and pride and is simultaneously afraid of moving forward. On the other hand, I was not set on resolving the character’s struggles or forcing a reconciliation. A phrase that has come up a lot in this pandemic is “asymptomatic carrier” — I believe most people have suffered pain and hurt, but they live their lives carrying this pain “asymptomatically” through their daily struggles against themselves. I completed this film with two insights above in mind.