《未出柜的女同性恋》则被选至美国波士顿Wicked Queer LGBTQ+电影节、爱尔兰GAZE国际LGBTQ+电影节 、美国戴维斯女权主义电影节、瑞士Porny Days电影艺术节、奥地利维也纳色情电影节等。
Genre｜Documentary, Experimental, Short Film
Region｜São Paulo, Brazil
This is a late apology, a late love-letter, and a late goodbye.
Bia Lee is a 24 years old Korean brazilian amateur filmmaker and video-artist, also a full-time psychology major student based in São Paulo, Brazil. She/they works (plays) mostly with experimental, erotic and documentary stuff, as seen in Forefinger (2015), To Melt (2016), Her POV (2016) and Closeted Lesbian (2020), that were shown in film festivals in Brazil and abroad (e.g. Kreivės / Vilnius Queer Festival – Lithuania, International Videoart Festival Madrid – Spain, and Montreal Underground Film Festival – Canada).
Closeted Lesbian, specifically, was selected to festivals like Wicked Queer: The Boston LGBTQ+ Film Festival – US, GAZE International LGBTQ+ Film Festival – Ireland, Davis Feminist Film Festival – US, Porny Days Film Art Festival – Switzerland, Porn Film Festival Vienna – Austria, and more.
This is the first time her work was accepted in Asian – and she couldn’t be happier.
This short film is a small tribute to a childhood friend. She doesn’t know, but she was an important part of my sexuality, which is unconsciously built from the very beginning. A few years ago, a long time since the last time that I saw her or thinking about her or masturbating with her in my mind , she appeared in my dream. When I woke up, I searched her name on the internet to see how she was, only to found out that she committed suicide years earlier in 2014 when we were both 17 years old. I was in real shock for a while. I felt guilty and regretful.
She probably considered herself bisexual like me, but long before, when we were foolish children reproducing homophobia from our parents and society, I was bad to her at times. I took part of her sexuality as an offense, projecting on her something that is actually also mine – as I said, I even masturbated while thinking about her. About the suicide- I wished it had been me. I thought it should have been me. Sometimes I feel that we switched lives.
This film was a way to elaborate a little on my sexuality and also on guilt, death, and lamentation. It is a late apology, a late love-letter, and a late goodbye. From me, to a wonderful girl who lived a short but uncloseted time.