Don’t Think of Me
Cast｜Fu Xitong, Chen Yanxin
Genre｜Drama, experimental, queer, suspense
Production Company｜Department of Film Studies, Beijing Film Academy
A lovelorn photographer lives alone in a quiet and empty courtyard, where her ex-girlfriend moved out of recently. Entangled in her memories, she constantly thinks of her. One morning, she takes photographs in the yard, trying to find traces of her ex-girlfriend. Lying on the bed and looking at their photographs that afternoon, she finds herself in great pain and decides to clear away all the belongings of her ex-girlfriend. During this process she receives a photograph that she doesn’t know where it came from, making her feel afraid and desperate. So she picks up her camera and sets out to revisit the places she and her ex-girlfriend have been to before, in search of an illusory answer.
An undergraduate in the Department of Film Studies, Beijing Film Academy, class of 2023. He/She likes to play music when not studying and is a Netease Campus Musician (6oo9). He/She had an abortive attempt at short filmmaking in the summer of his/her freshmen year and worked as an AE assistant in an advertising company in his/her sophomore year. He/She’s about to begin his/her junior year and is still busy trying to figure it out.
Don’t Think of Me starts from the perspective of an individual, from the fragmentation of intimate relationships, to consider the question: what are the consequences when young people today are often immersed in memories and nostalgia? Inability to distinguish between reality and illusion? Detachment from the reality of life? The pursuit of things that are void and meaningless?
To a great extent this short film is my negation and criticism of myself. In the process of making it, I regarded myself as the photographer in the film who is full of my sensitive, suspicious, unreasonable, but sides. I am deeply aware that such immersion in individual self-expression and my own sense of aesthetics will not have any impact, nor can it solve any practical problems. But I still want to express this state because it is my actual feelings which I also want to share with people who may have similar experiences with me.