Producer: Zhao Hui
Photographer: Gao Tain, Qu Jiangtao
Editor: Gao Tian, Song Titao
Meimei is a dragqueen in Beijing China. In 2004 he found a man of his love who also accepts Meimei as is. They held a public ceremonious wedding. Meimei is filled with confidence for this marriage. His friends held a “Meimei Farewell Concert” for the gay community. Along with the farewell concert, Meimei also gave up the stability of a life in Beijing attained as a result of many years of hard work. He prepared to go to Shanghai, a new city, to begin a new way of life. But things did not turn out to be as planned, as the brief marriage was not happy at all. He came back to Beijing soon, embarrassed to see old friends while falling into worse financial strait than ever before.
I came to know Meimei as a kind-hearted individual whose pure devotion and sincere thirst for love always lead to emotional wounds with every relationship .
During the filmmaking, Meimei and I evolved from curious stranger initially to brothers-like friends. I also came to understand transvestite males as a group who from childhood on desire to be girls deep inside. Due to various pressure from life, discrimination from family and friends and an unwillingness to sacrifice their career and the ability to make a living, most of them can only release their desires deep within through cross-dressing performances. They hope to initiate their own lives with a new identity but also recognize the inherent difficulties and problems. I hope that through this film more people will come to feel their deep pain as my team and I have, so as to understand and accept them as who they are, and accept such lifestyle as is. We also most sincerely hope that through our film, this group of individuals also obtains the kind of support needed to build a new life.