暗瞳My Eyes Dimmed Again
片长(Length)：30mins
字幕(Subtitles)：中英 Chinese/English
完成时间(Year)：2010年
编剧(Screenplay)：张若溪Roxy Zhang
导演(Director)：张若溪Roxy Zhang
主演(Actor)：余婧Gin Yu 胡爱唯Aviry Hu 罗孜孜Zee Luo
制片人(Producer)：张若溪Roxy Zhang
摄影(Cinematography)：张若溪Roxy Zhang 侯卜元Dale Hou
录音(Sound)：张若溪Roxy Zhang
剪辑(Editing)：张若溪Roxy Zhang

故事梗概：
女孩小满22岁生日那天，收到了一架单反相机。这个从天而降的礼物对于小满来说，像一株救命稻草般，将她从迷惘的状态中暂时解脱出来。她希望成为一名摄影师并以此找到活着的存在感和价值。籍由这个相机，她认识了来影楼拍写真的女孩童汐，和童汐快速旋入的明媚生活似乎让她找到了生活的方向。
好景不长，反复无常的小满又重新跌入虚无的漩涡。由相机引来的老板娘的误会和嫉妒让她失去了摄影兼职工作。她渐渐厌倦了摄影，并怀疑自己同性恋情的真伪。她有一个秘密，那源于她的一个梦，梦里的有个女孩反复缠绕她的意识。她希望能知道梦的隐喻，便在自己的右臂上刺了一只有神的眼睛，寓意为清醒不再迷惑，替她好好看清周遭的世界。然而，这只眼睛却把她带到了梦中女孩的生活边缘。
失恋后的小满生活骤然黯淡。她认识了赛车手忧明，她抽烟，她想要尝试堕落的感受，并学着和异性相处。在情绪冲到谷底的那一刹那，她却忽然明白了自己所要，并想念过去轻易放弃的美好时光。她回到当初决定她和童汐缘分的江桥上，幻影重现——昔日恋人向她奔跑而来，忧明和梦中女孩在桥的另一边拥吻。一切似梦魇如幻境，即便右臂上的眼睛也未能帮她看清任何。她不知道自己睡在哪一层梦境，那么，即便醒来又能如何?

Synopsis：
An ordinary girl named Xiaoman received a special gift — a camera on her 22nd birthday party. The camera acted as a life-saving straw, freeing her from the nightmarish sense of bewildered helplessness temporarily when she was confused of the nihility and absurdity in her life. She wanted a strong feeling of existence and the meaning of her life. Then she wanted to be a cameraman. With this camera, she came across the girl named Tongxi in her photographic studio and fell in love with her at once. The happiness time spending with Tongxi seemed to be just the life Xiaoman wanted.

As time passed by, she grew bored with this lifestyle. She lost her inspiration and motivation both on photography and on her lover. She felt miserable to see everything clearly about the future. And then she had an illusion. She dreamed a same girl every night. She wanted to know the meaning of this dream, and what actually the girl in her dream wants to tell her. But she couldn’t find the answer. Then she tattooed an eye on her arm. She thought the “third eye” will see clearly the world around for her. However, the “eye” brought Xiaoman to the dangerous circumstances of the girl in dream. In the dark time, the eyes began to see.

Youth is just like an improvised draft to her. She couldn’t tell her illusion from the truth herself. So who could wake her up then? Her eyes seems to dim again and again.

导演简历：
张若溪(Roxy)，女，87年夏末秋初生人，新闻系毕业生。离职记者、待业青年，欲奔赴美利坚实现另一个昙花一现的梦。边缘文化影像纪录片indie & rock爱好者。至于理想么，当然是在路上——这是个绝顶暧昧不明的短句。23岁，人生才刚刚开始。

Bio-filmography of Director：
Zhang Ruoxi (Roxy), female, born in the summer of 1987. My major in college is Journalism. I worked as a journalist and editor for one and a half years. Now I want to study abroad to know more about movie and experience a different life. Fascinated by marginal people, I’m addicted to their miserable or interesting stories. And that’s how I became a totally movie-lover and would like to further my dream in media — making valuable independent documentaries and MTVs and serving for non-profit groups. Besides, I’m in love with rock’n’roll and all the kinds of indie culture. On the road — it’s my final dream like many young people. In my age 23, life just begins.

导演阐述：
毕业前夕一个突如其来的想法，使常常困于准备过多思虑过多而胎死腹中了许许多多个梦的我，这一次却用一瞬间的冲动决定拍片，用十几分钟在café打出剧本初稿，用一个晚上和朋友一起定人选借设备。最后人选不足，我便自己充当导演、编剧、摄像、剪辑等角色，而这些对我来说都是崭新的第一次。
我曾经为了体验生活利用假期走遍了哈尔滨十几家同性恋酒吧，也在平日里接触到一些不同性向的人们。这些都给我的短片提供了好的灵感来源。带有那么些不合时宜——别人忙于毕业就业我把工作辞了专心拍片。有人问拍片为了什么。第一天策划拍片我就对剧组人员说：我们不是为了得到大众的肯定，而是每个人都能充分享受这个过程，这将会是一个难忘的夏天。
选择生活、选择恋人、选择成为怎样的人——这对小满来说似乎却是无意识的行为。有时候我们会在一个瞬间仿佛彻悟生命的真谛，但却又日渐重新困顿于迷惘之中，甚至对于我们如此确信的事情有时候也会刹那看不清晰。这就是《暗瞳》。不到10天拍摄、三个月剪辑、几近零成本的处女作。
谨以此片献给这个毕业季的夏天。每个人的22岁。以及一朵见光未死草率的梦。

Director’s Statement：
Before graduation, I left my job and devoted to making my zero-budget independent film My Eyes Dimmed Again under impulse. The half-hour film concerning homosexuality aroused intense controversies among over 300,000 audiences. I ran all around the city searching for the 15 gay bars to experience the life of the homosexuals. This became good inspiration to me to write this film. It was my first experience of being the director, writer, photographer and editor of a film. I also acted as the script supervisor, narrator, and English subtitle translator.

Choose life, choose lover, and choose to be someone — but Xiaoman doesn’t choose, she just feels them. Sometimes we seem to suddenly understand the true meaning of the life and then we are passionate with all that we love which is the very power that drive us all the way. With the time goes by, however, we gradually get confused in the same puzzle again. Even to the thing we believe in with all our hearts, we couldn’t see clearly in a certain moment. And that is what the short film MY EYES DIMMED AGAIN tells about.

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